A very painful July

July is gonna be so difficult. So hard to believe that last year I was standing at your birthday party wishing aloud that you would be around to celebrate your 7th birthday with us all.  And now, all I have are just memories... Memories that I can't touch, smell, hold or feel...  I can shed a million tears but  nothing will change the fact that I no longer can see your smiles or receive hugs from you.  It's as though you have never existed...  Life is a mystery.  Love is... Unexplainable. I love you.  And I love you.  Let life cycles be true ad come back to me.  For without you, love is nothing.