One more step

Monday, July 16, 2012

Finally settled the hospital bills in full...  A part of me didn't want to because I like receiving reminder letters addressed to Charmaine Lim Fan Xi. I even like receiving numerous calls from the credit company hounding me for payment.  No more keying in your Birth Certificate Numbers. No more KKH.  I have no sense of relief or happiness that it's settled.  Just another step towards the closure which I honestly hate to deal with... Somehow I did it this morning.  I miss you my darling girl. I miss hearing you recite your 'T0520021G' to the nurses to verify the correct chemo is given to you.  I love you. And I wish I could love you more than this lifetime. 

5 comments:

Andy said...

Hi, although I know the pain of separation, I can't imagine what you must have gone through. All I can say is that after all the grief and guilt, there should be the feeling of gratitude. Gratitude for being able to be part of the life of someone so beautiful, however brief it may be. Thank you for sharing your life and Charmaine's life with everyone. Your story is truly inspiring and heartwarming.

Andy said...

Hi, although I know the pain of separation, I can't imagine what you must have gone through. All I can say is that after all the grief and guilt, there should be the feeling of gratitude. Gratitude for being able to be part of the life of someone so beautiful, however brief it may be. Thank you for sharing your life and Charmaine's life with everyone. Your story is truly inspiring and heartwarming.

Andy said...

Hi, although I know the pain of separation, I can't imagine what you must have gone through. All I know is that after all the grief and guilt, there should be the feeling of gratitude. Gratitude for being able to be a part of the life of someone so beautiful, however brief it may be. Thank you for sharing your life and Charmaine's life with everyone. Your story is truly inspiring and heartwarming.

Mama Joan said...

I still check your blog everyday. I don't know what i am expecting to read in this blog but it just brings me comfort whenever i log in and see lil Char's photos on it. Perhaps, in some ways, just like you, i just doesn't want to let go. I believe many of us feels the same, thats why there are still so many encouraging comments.

Mama Joan said...

I still check your blog everyday. I don't know what i am expecting to read in this blog but it just brings me comfort whenever i log in and see lil Char's photos on it. Perhaps, in some ways, just like you, i just doesn't want to let go. I believe many of us feels the same, thats why there are still so many encouraging comments.

 
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