Excruciating pain...

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Charmaine's right leg is in excruciating pain...

We cried and cried and amidst her pain and cries, she kept touching my face, telling me: "Mommy, I'm so sorry to make you cry... I'm so sorry I can't control my pain..." when the pain gets worse, she screams: "Mommy, I love you so much!"

She keeps repeating those lines and keeps screaming "I love you so much Mommy!!!"

My heart keeps bleeding... My tears keep dropping... Not because of my helplessness but because of her love for me... I can't save her... How can I be deserving of such depth of love... She doesn't forget to show me her love even when she is suffering so much and in such degree of pain...

Please please please pray for my little girl to be healed on earth... The toughest part of this entire journey is not wheeling her into a major operation, neither is it the high dose chemo, nor the horrific side effects... IT IS WATCHING MY BELOVED CHILD IN EXCRUCIATING PAIN and I am rendered helpless... The degree of pain all these kids with cancer have to suffer through is inhumane and heart wrenching. And they have done nothing to deserve any of these... Nothing at all...

Please pray with me for a miracle...

Tearfully,
cyn mommy

11 comments:

deedee said...

*hugs cyn and charmaine*

Mama Joan said...

M at a loss of words but all i want to tell u is: Yes, i am praying everyday for a miracle for your family and pls do continue to believe in God's healing.... He will heal....

God bless! Charmaine, Auntie felt so hurt to see u in so much pain and your love for your mummy really make me feel small. Be brave, lil princess, for you are a warrior to so many of us. The pain that you have suffered shall not be in vain becos God will kill the monster in you for He loves you. Jia You, lil' Warrior!!

Ng said...

dear cyn mummy,

my heart aches so much too as you mentioned how Charmaine called out to you "I love you mummy"

Oh Lord, please give Charmaine & family a miracle, please...

pls continue to be and stay strong cause you know you are not really alone. alot of friends, relatives, even strangers who do not know you personally are praying for Charmaine.

Vivienne

Cassie said...

I duno which religion you belong to.. but I say this prayer to Saint Anthony when I'm at a loss..

O Holy St. Anthony, gentlest of Saints, you love for God and Charity for His creatures, made you worthy, when on earth, to possess miraculous powers. Miracles waited on your word, which you were ever ready to speak for those in trouble or anxiety. Encouraged by this thought, I implore of you to obtain for me (state request here). The answer to my prayer may require a miracle, even so, you are the Saint of Miracles.

O gentle and loving St. Anthony, whose heart was ever full of human sympathy, whisper my petition into the ears of the Sweet Infant Jesus, who loved to be folded in your arms; and the gratitude of my heart will ever be yours. Amen.

Do not lose faith.. God Bless..

Cassie said...

I duno which religion you belong to.. but I say this prayer to Saint Anthony when I'm at a loss..

O Holy St. Anthony, gentlest of Saints, you love for God and Charity for His creatures, made you worthy, when on earth, to possess miraculous powers. Miracles waited on your word, which you were ever ready to speak for those in trouble or anxiety. Encouraged by this thought, I implore of you to obtain for me (state request here). The answer to my prayer may require a miracle, even so, you are the Saint of Miracles.

O gentle and loving St. Anthony, whose heart was ever full of human sympathy, whisper my petition into the ears of the Sweet Infant Jesus, who loved to be folded in your arms; and the gratitude of my heart will ever be yours. Amen.

Do not lose faith.. God Bless..

frency said...

You will always be in my prayers sweet Charmaine. Everything is possible with Him...

Rudi-Lee said...

How is Charmaine doing?

PhotoShow said...

Dear Feisty Char's mother,

After reading her blog, I was so worried about her. I hope she can get better soon.

Believe it or not, there are Longevitology energy adjustments center around Singapore, if you bring her there, it might benefits her. You could find out from here: http://www.handswithlove.org.sg/Benefits.php
The adjustments center’s location: http://www.handswithlove.org.sg/Adjustment-%28Healing%29-Centres-%E7%88%B1%E5%BF%83%E8%B0%83%E6%95%B4%E7%AB%99.php

Or you could call them : 9012 4326

Hope you could bring her ASAP.

PhotoShow said...

Dear Feisty Char's mother,

After reading her blog, I was so worried about her. I hope she can get better soon.

Believe it or not, there are Longevitology energy adjustments center around Singapore, if you bring her there, it might benefits her. You could find out from here: http://www.handswithlove.org.sg/Benefits.php
The adjustments center’s location: http://www.handswithlove.org.sg/Adjustment-%28Healing%29-Centres-%E7%88%B1%E5%BF%83%E8%B0%83%E6%95%B4%E7%AB%99.php

Or you could call them : 9012 4326

Hope you could bring her ASAP.

kittymin said...

could feel your pain as you type this post. must be really hard on you and your daughter=(

don't know what to say... but. *hugs*

Press on~

♥Shalny♥ said...

Recover soonest Charmaine.
Charmaine's mummy take care too :)

 
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