She hugged me so tightly...

Friday, October 7, 2011

We are inpatient for a platelet transfusion...

It was quite an adventure to get Char here... Believe it or not, I called at least 4 private ambulance hotlines and they were all busy at noon, telling me that we had to wait up to 3hours for one to be available to get us to KKH...

Char was in so much pain, crying out non stop. Finally, I decided to call 995 and got an ambulance...

As usual, as per worldwide standards, we waited for close to 4hours for platelets to arrive...

I can see tumors popping out everywhere on my already suffering child... It's so heartbreaking and devastating... And they are all causing her new areas of pain... It's totally inumane. I've heard stories of tumors popping out everywhere disfiguring their child... pathological fractures... Excruciating bone pains, breathing difficulties... Reading about them doesn't even come close to witnessing everything happening right before your eyes and yet being Char's mom... The person who is supposed to protect her from all harm, I am rendered totally helpless except to try ad knock her out with heavy narcotics...

This afternoon while at hospital, she opened her eyes half way, in a drowsy semi awake state, she stretched out her hands, reached for my face, wrapped her arms weakly around my neck and gave me her tightest hug, with whatever little strength she has... A hug I will never forever... I feel so loved but yet I feel so undeserving... I can't save her. I don't know what to do...

Please continue to pray... Pray for her lungs to recover their normal working function, pray for her tumors to stop growing, pray for her to regain her strength, pray for her marrow to start producing platelets and haemoglobin on its own, pray for her body to recognize the errant cancer cells as foreign and get its own immune to attack those cancer cells and kill them all... Pray for ALL her cancer cells to start dying off on their own because its how nature wants them to be... Pray for all her organs to remain strong and healthy...

Pray for my wisdom to find her the right medication to kill all the cancer cells and get her immunity up and working soon... Pray for time to be our side...

I love this little girl of mine too much... She needs to stay here where I am at! She belongs in my arms... And nowhere else. She loves her family too much to be away from them... So please let my baby stay here with me, with Jase, with us... This is where her home is... The only and the best place for her to be at... On earth, by our sides, with her family...

I pray that all my prayers are heard...

Healing starts now...

Love,
Cyn mommy

PS: Thank you to everyone who drop words of encouragement for me and my family... They mean a great deal to us even though I always forget to mention... They keep me going and constanty remind me that I have an army of supporters behind us...

THANK YOU.

21 comments:

Eurofighter said...

She has fought a lot already and I don't think she's likely to give up now. She's impossibly strong even for an adult, and of course for a tender princss she is. I'm sending all my best thoughts to Char and her family, somehow I believe she'll show everyone a true miracle. <3

stacey said...

I am sure your prayers are heard. You just need to match yourself with the frequency of what your heart desired. I know it sounds abstract. It took me some time to get it too. Let go of your resistance and follow the path of least resistance. That's where the answers are. Love is pure positive energy. Compassion is pure positive energy. Fear is not. Love and fear just don't go together. Our inner being is pure positive energy. Our resistance is not. If you get what I mean. I am proud of your strength. Just remember there are a lot of people who love you and are supporting you all the way. Sending special prayers your way.

Kenneth said...

Our heavenly father, you are our creator and you have uniquely created Charmaine. We break all curses of sickness and disease in her, and we command all hereditary spirits of sickness to come out of Charmaine's body In Jesus name. We cleanse Charmaine with the holy precious blood of Christ. Heal her O' Lord and she shall be healed.
O Father God, give Cynthia your strength and be her stronghold and the tower of refuge. Help her to focus on You and let her live each day with peace in her heart and mind. We give you thanks and we give you praise. In Jesus almighty name we pray. Amen

stn said...

Charmaine is such a beautiful child. Praying for those cells to leave her body once and for all.But most importantly, we should remember that cancer never touched Charmaine's brave spirit. It is still pure and whole.

Daddy's Girl said...

I just want to say Jesus loves all the little children (including Charmaine)in all circumstances. I am praying for Jesus to heal her and restore her. He is with her always.

jdi said...

I posted this last night when read your post on another person's wall. and a responce from one of the posters in a reply to mine. And the last is from the passage in the bible (Mark 2:1-12) I hope this will both encourage and strengthen you and Char. Take care / {{{hugs}}}

Keith Hopson I dont know if this is appropriet to post a prayer request here or not, but my friend needs a miracle and a touch from the Almighty, the Great I Am (God). I dont know what else to do for my friend. Please , to all those who see this post, pray . Her daughter has Neuroblastoma (childhood canser of the stomach). Here is her last post on her wall on facebook: Cyn Lim
We are inpatient at KKH now after much drama... For a transfusion and hopefully more narcotics for the excruciating pain she's in... I hate the lumps popping over everywhere!

Leonard Napier ‎2Keith: "Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus and, after digging through it, lowered the mat the paralyzed man was lying on." Mark 2:4

Mark 2
Jesus Forgives and Heals a Paralyzed Man
1 A few days later, when Jesus again entered Capernaum, the people heard that he had come home. 2 They gathered in such large numbers that there was no room left, not even outside the door, and he preached the word to them. 3 Some men came, bringing to him a paralyzed man, carried by four of them. 4 Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus by digging through it and then lowered the mat the man was lying on. 5 When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralyzed man, “Son, your sins are forgiven.”

6 Now some teachers of the law were sitting there, thinking to themselves, 7 “Why does this fellow talk like that? He’s blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?”

8 Immediately Jesus knew in his spirit that this was what they were thinking in their hearts, and he said to them, “Why are you thinking these things? 9 Which is easier: to say to this paralyzed man, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Get up, take your mat and walk’? 10 But I want you to know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins.” So he said to the man, 11 “I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.” 12 He got up, took his mat and walked out in full view of them all. This amazed everyone and they praised God, saying, “We have never seen anything like this!”

mirth said...

My heart goes to you, Cynthia. our thoughts are with you and Charmaine . As a mom, it is so painful to read abt the pain she is going thru. Pls take care of yrself. Charmaine is probably trying to console you with the hug - as if to say "Mama, dun cry. You have tried your very best. I love you"..

To Charmaine - you are the bright shining star who has touched many near and far. We love you.

saffyz said...

1 Corinthians 11:26
26For as often as you eat this bread and drink this cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death till He comes.

The Lord’s table is prepared for you in the presence of your enemies because when you partake of the bread and wine, you will see your enemies tremble and scatter! Why? Because when you proclaim the Lord’s death through the Holy Communion, you are reminding the devil and his cohorts of their humiliating defeat at Calvary’s cross! (Colossians 2:15)

Partake of the Holy Communion as often as you want to, as a proclamation of His sacrifice at the Cross for Charmaine's healing! Believe and freely receive!

saffyz said...

1 Corinthians 11:26
26For as often as you eat this bread and drink this cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death till He comes.

The Lord’s table is prepared for you in the presence of your enemies because when you partake of the bread and wine, you will see your enemies tremble and scatter! Why? Because when you proclaim the Lord’s death through the Holy Communion, you are reminding the devil and his cohorts of their humiliating defeat at Calvary’s cross! (Colossians 2:15)

Partake of the Holy Communion as often as you want to, as a proclamation of His sacrifice at the Cross for Charmaine's healing! Believe and freely receive!

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Nam said...

Dear Cyn,
PLease let me know if there is anything I can do to help.
96864642
Dr Siow YN

01 said...

hi cyn mummy and charmaine, you are in my prayers. been following this blog since it started.. hang in there, rainbow will appear after the rain - hugs -

Justina said...

This post is so heart-wrenching... Cyn mommy I do not know what else could I say which will make you feel better, nor do I know if there is anything I can do to make Char better too. I come to this blog everyday, praying very hard for good news. In the meantime, stay strong Cyn mommy!!

Sangeeta said...

i am so sorry. is there anything i can do to help you financially? i dont have a lot but i want to help. would char like a visit from a 27 yr woman who reads these posts with tears in her eyes?

my email add is: monsoonseason@hotmail.com and my name is Sangeeta.

Bless you and your family.

serenelimst said...

Thinking of you these few days. Love and hugs to Charmaine & you, Cynthia. Hang in there. You know where to find us if you need any extra help managing pain...you can reach us through Joanne too. Stay strong, Take Care. Serene

serenelimst said...

Dear Charmaine & Cynthia,
Thinking of you these few days. Thought you were in KK but couldn't find you when I went back to check on Saturday. Hang in there. You know how to reach us if you need extra help with managing Pain...(Joanne/E mail/mobile). Stay Strong & Take Care.
Sending Love, Hugs & a prayer for healing, Serene

xin said...

Will keep praying for u. For God's grace n strength to b constantly w u. U r an extraordinary woman. Pray for God's healing on Char.

xin said...

Will keep praying for u. For God's grace n strength to b constantly w u. U r an extraordinary woman. Pray for God's healing on Char.

3As Mummy said...

Dun despair ... I am here...
Dun lose heart ... I am here...
Dun give up ... I am here...

God is here with us all, no matter how trying your days get....

Cyn Mummy, we are all here praying with you. Everything happens for a reason, good and bad, and the reason will only be revealed in His Time.

2amYH said...

I pray for healing process for Charmaine, that her body to fight and force the disease out of her body and recovery is taking place now. I not sure whether you believe alternative Medicine, but you can google on this few keyword : burzynski and uropathy. God bless...

 
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